Thursday, July 2, 2009

Quote of the day

I read this on another blogger's blog http://myjourneytomylesandbeyond.blogspot.com/ , I'm going to borrow it Niki. Thanks.

"Worrying does not empty tomorrow of it's troubles; it empties today of it's strengths"
I know I need to repeat this to myself over and over again. I'm a worried hot mess. I have been checking her heartbeat all day today. I am so scared, so scared of being this close and BAM something happens. This crap happens everyday. I am poking and prodding at her, I was on the verge of calling my OB and begging for her to take the baby early. 5 more days. I have to remember this, only 5 more days. BUT, I am freaking out. I don't want to lose her. Then I worry about it being a holiday weekend. See when Ethan died last year it was right before Memorial Day. I have this thing about holiday weekends. I know, I'm losing it. Can time just fly by, please. I want it to be Tuesday July 7th already. I want a guarantee that she will still be alive. Oh God, please help me!

6 comments:

Monique said...

No words, just hugs. xo

Monica H said...

I pray for strength to come your way. Tuesday can't get here soon enough.

Ya Chun said...

I am guessing that you have the exchange phone number programmed into speed dial!

Andrea said...

Hang in there. You can do this. Deep breaths. Thinking of you

janis said...

Sending good thoughts. Hang in there!

CLC said...

I hope today flies by for you! Can't wait to hear some news tomorrow!