Sunday, September 20, 2009

Finally figured out how to post pictures!!!!

I'm here, it's been a while since I've posted. There is so much to share, yet I can't seem to find the time to do so.

We are all well. We are loving parenting Lauren. She is adorable, easy going and so freaking cute. OK, I know I'm a bit biased but she is.

Here is a picture of me, at 35 weeks pregnant. A week before her birth. I wanted to take prenatal photographs with Ethan but I never had the chance. Looking at this photograph is bittersweet, I remember being pregnant with Ethan and Lauren. I miss those times, being pregnant, and then I think to myself, "What is wrong with you? You were a mess? Always wondering whether this baby would be born alive" But, I do, I miss it. I miss being pregnant. I miss having her and of course, him inside of me.

I try not to think about the sad memories, but it is impossible. I now realize that life is intertwined with death. And more so, with us, deadbabymamas whom have had subsequent pregnancies. I will have to write more about this later. In the meantime, I will leave you all with a picture of Jason and Lauren. She was 4 weeks old here.


Monica H said...

She is beautiful in your belly and out. Her lips...and that hair.


Amanda said...

Nice to hear from you. Lauren is beautiful and love the belly photo as well. So glad she is safe in your arms.

Andrea said...

Yay! So glad to finally see this new addition to your family! I actually thought about you this morning and wondered how you're holding up with a new baby in the house! Glad you are doing well! Congratulations.